Enigmatic Bliss

sun studio

2011-11-08T05:22:00.000-08:00

MSN had an article this morning on "Touring America's Pop Culture"... in that slideshow was Sun Studio in Memphis, TN which I went to last 4th of July... wanted to post a few pics from my first trip to the birthplace of Rock & Roll!

The Sun rises on rock ’n’ roll (Memphis, Tenn.)

In 1952 Sam Phillip started Sun Records at 706 Union St. in Memphis, Tenn., and two years later a young truck driver named Elvis Presley recorded his first song there. Other musicians discovered or recorded by Sun Records in the early 1950s included Johnny Cash, Jerry Lee Lewis and Carl Perkins; together with Presley, they became known as the Million Dollar Quartet (the subject of a 2010 Broadway musical by that name). Sun Studio has since the location for recordings by acts such as U2 and Def Leppard; more recently younger touring artists, from Jakob Dylan to Grace Potter & the Nocturnals, have recorded there, their work broadcast as Sun Studio Sessions on many PBS stations. In 2003 the site of the record company and recording studio was named a National Historic Landmark. The legendary building is open daily, with tours given hourly from 10:30 a.m. until 5:30 p.m.

Above: All of the hit records produced and recorded at Sun Studio (in that exact room!) Here I am sangin' with THE Elvis Presley microphone...the exact one that recorded some of his biggest hits. I even stood on his same X on the concrete floor where he swayed with those hips. What a tour!

i'm in love....

2011-11-02T09:42:00.000-07:00

It is the love that you love.
It is love that makes you dream.
It is love that wants love.
It is love that makes us cry ...

But all those who believe they love each other,
Those who pretend to love,
Yes, all those who believe they love each other
Will never cry ...

In love, there must be tears
In love, we need ...

And those who have no tears
Will never love ...
We need both, and so many tears
To have the right to love ...

My love, oh I love you,
You make me cry often ...

I have given my tears,
I cried for a better love to you,
I paid so many tears
To always have the right to love ...
Forever ... the right to love!

**so few things in life are about us... love is all about us and how that love transcends everything making us shapable, lovable, comfortable and loyal partners. I have never felt this way before...I love him with all that I have.

delicate walls...

2011-10-28T13:07:00.000-07:00

"Imagine you’re strolling down a fabulous old street in the heart of Paris and you spy a wonderful decades-old mansion, sooty with age and covered with gargoyles and window boxes overflowing with lavender, roses, honeysuckle. You stop to admire but then, out of the corner of your eye you see a big black wrecking ball about to smash the building down. 'Noooo,' you cry as you clutch your Lulu Guinness handbag and rush in, determined to save the age-old hand-decorated plastered panel walls." -Kathe Fraga, artist

Today I found some amazing hand-painted French wallpaper by Kathe Fraga and really wanted to share. What a gorgeous one-of-a-kind way of creating a colorful, lively and energized space that has all of the charm and beauty of art with the conceptual idea of wallpaper...that's divine.

"One Step A Mile" Screening in Chicago

2011-10-28T04:39:00.000-07:00

"What we can't see makes what we can see. One mustn't despise a good feeling."- Joe Archibald

I auditioned for an indy film while living in the Windy City and Ian Bogere, a grad from Columbia College, took a chance on casting me for the role of Chanel, a hooker with a heart of gold. I play Joe Archibald's love interest who shows him another side to life. The side where love can conquer all despite losing parents, being shunned from society and not having any place to turn. Honestly, it was one of the best experiences of my life thus far and I am honored to be a part of such a film. Ian's hard work and dedication to making "One Step A Mile" screenable is a testament to his character and creative talent. It is being screened tonight in the same place where I went to audition that spring morning. The message of OSAM is to hold on, put one foot in front of the other and choose to LIVE life no matter what happened yesterday. I love that message. And... it's so fitting for the screening to be tonight, for I too, have found that same undeniable magic that only loving someone great can provide you.

One Step A Mile and it's been one month ago today since our chance meeting...life is so amusing.

solitary by Klimt

2011-10-27T10:16:00.001-07:00

Seated Woman, with Open Legs, 1916/17

Pencil, red crayon, highlighted in white,

57 x 38 cm

Oil on canvas, Austria

Sitting over coffee this morning with my lifelong friend and confidant I was taken by this female form and the loveliness of her face. Klimt has been described as a great "psychologist of womanhood" yet consisted mainly of erotic and sexual enjoyment-no more. They say that the type of art you are naturally drawn to liking says a lot about how you live your life. Up to this point, I have lived alone, worked in a city without family and had no real attachments to things, so I must say that seems about right. I am drawn to single images of a person not a group, making solitary moves...

This sketch was really beautiful to me and I wanted to share. The 25th Anniversary book of KLIMT by Taschen was picked up on a sunny day in LA at the Grove...love that store!

i (heart) fall

2011-10-25T07:47:00.000-07:00

Thievery Corporation is crankin' on the iPod this morning and I have the windows open throughout the entire house. I love this time of year when the air is cool like a breeze coming off of the ocean. the leaves have begun falling making any drive exciting and colorful with burgundy hues highlighting the hillsides. traveling to St. Louis last week for business, I remembered why the Ozarks in the fall is like nowhere else. I wanted to share a few snapshots as of late and send warm fall fuzzies to all of those fall lovers out there...

PEACE

2011-10-12T11:05:00.000-07:00

Lots of great stuff has transpired since the last writing...fall has begun, the house is getting painted, I have began to work out again, my nails haven't been bitten since July and I met a great guy who makes me blissfully girly ( i know, what?!).

That being said, I was cleaning out my desk today and rediscovered the Universal Peace Covenant written in purple on a single sheet of paper that a girl that I (in true Marissa fashion) serendipitously met in the Denver airport on a layover gave me. She was a dedicated member of the School of Metaphysics which is headquartered in Springfield, my hometown. We talked for a few hours about life, the teachings of the School and how her life had been impacted by simplifying. She didn't own a cell phone, computer, didn't have an email address to give me. She simply had an address in a small town where she practiced her newfound teachings and lived a solitary yet meaningful and purposeful life.

I read through this today and realized that this covenant is what we all need with us doing the seeking, teaching, learning and thus attaining. I love to meet people but I must say this young woman was an old soul who taught me so much in that short period of time. Here are some of the main points that fall at the top of each paragraph.

Peace is the breath of our spirit.

Peace is our birthright.

Our world is in the midst of change.

We affirm that peace is an idea whose time has come.

World peace begins within ourselves.

Peace is first a state of mind.

Peace is active, the motion of silence, of faith, of accord, of service.

Peace is achieved by those who fulfill their part of a greater plan.

Living peaceably begins by thinking peacefully.

Peace be with us all ways. May Peace Prevail on Earth.

a sunday in september

2011-09-25T18:09:00.000-07:00

the last 3 weeks have been eagerly rushed, emotionally demanding and yet surprisingly exciting. i have been granted a new look into the life of yours truly. single again and alarmed that independence feels this good, i have taken a closer look at what makes ME happy, content and never yearning for more out of life. i guess i am hard to please. a bit OCD. a tad impatient. (that last statement made me laugh aloud) since my life has been spent being in a rush.

but for the last few weeks, i have taken the time to just be. like the common song, i have enjoyed simply doing nothing and anything at all. i am learning that in those moments of silence are when you learn the most about your self.

i love the fall weather, the rain has been steady and sullen but has made the heat of the summer subside nicely into crisp, clean air. projects abound and life is joyful again. trips are planned, birthdays celebrated and memories made like Adele sings about.

happy 25th day of September, whoever you are regardless of where you are today...we are both on a journey to finding happiness, love and laughter within.

downtown at dusk

2011-09-03T18:15:00.000-07:00

There are some really aesthetically pleasing old buildings in downtown Springfield. Historical Commercial Street is another spot where snapping photos is a favorite past-time. I wanted to share a few of my recent photographs....

happy birthday, LoLa

2011-09-01T20:58:00.000-07:00

Today you are 12. How is that possible? Time has flown by as you have grown into the most amazing, beautiful and unique people in my life. Life has taken me to different physical places but I have never stopped adoring, bragging or highlighting your lives and accomplishments no matter where I was. The best memories of my life involve the two of you and I am so honored to have you in my life.

I am proud of your character, humor and most of all, your unwavering strength through life's twists and turns. You are good. You are simply divine. Stay purely sensational! Never change your morals for anyone. Always say thank you. Never take anything or anyone for granted. These are my wishes for you on your birthday.

9.1.99 was the day the world would never be the same. I love you more than you will ever know. I am always there through this journey. I love and admire you.

With love and laughter,

Aunt Rica

a fantasy wedding: L+D

2011-08-31T08:13:00.000-07:00

Christian Gideon captured the wedding of the summer. Set on a sprawling Estate on the outskirts of the city, my brightest girlfriend sparkled on her August wedding day. Every detail was immaculate and the images truly mirrored the passionate love shared between L + D. Dale was striking in his light grey suit, fresh with matching Jordan's (love that).

I'll add images as I get them but Christian's link above has a selection that showcase the beauty, love and elegance of the evening. Doing makeup has granted me such a gift. Life is full of these life-changing moments and I am lucky to be asked to be a part of such a monumental one. I love being a part of such a magical time in someone's life.

Bridal Barbie was what we called Lyndsey as she sauntered amidst the guests in her wedding gown. She was simply stunning. Making over the groom's mother was a treat for me, too. I showed her the finished product and tears swelled in her eyes giving me my first tearjerker moment of the evening. The Barbo's hosted this gorgeous affair, opening their home to more than 200 guests of Lyndsey and Dale. The Lamberth's were a fun, classy and astonishingly beautiful couple to watch that 13th day of August. If only all weddings were so magical...

float on

2011-08-12T07:59:00.000-07:00

Summer has come and gone. Time is a vanishing act these days and I can't seem to get a grasp on how fast days fly by. The older you get, the faster they fly. I can't believe it's the 12th of August already! Remember your school days (elemenwhen summer days seemed to linger on forever. On a warm Saturday, my honey and I spent the day floating down the James River in the heart of the Ozarks and enjoyed everything that the great outdoors has to offer. A bit of fishing, swimming and people watching made this weekend float one for the books.

Amanda & Joel's wedding featured in "Style Me Pretty"

2011-08-09T16:21:00.000-07:00

A wonderful thing happens when you reconnect with childhood friends in a rustic and gorgeous wedding. I had the honor of being the makeup artist for my gal, Amanda, for her wedding on May 28, 2011 in Springfield, Missouri. Not only was the bride a childhood friend, but the photographer, Edyta Szyszlo, was as well!

Everything was perfect and every detail thought of and addressed as Edyta beautifully capture every moment of this magical evening. I love Edyta's eye and creative flair through her images and her blog is such a lovely way to spend a cup of coffee, or three, and she has such beautifully clean and emotional photographs. So pretty was this rustic wedding, in fact, that "Style Me Pretty", an inspirational spot for everything weddings has featured Amanda & Joel's May wedding.

See more of Amanda's Wedding Photos.

delicate complexity: an essay

2011-07-10T12:00:00.000-07:00

* An August day at my mother's grave.

My last semester, first semester back in college, I was asked to write about an event or person who has helped shape our identity. This writing was for my Studies in American Life class which stretched me as writer and allowed me time to recollect on a time that deeply affected me and my life. I loved this time and am thankful to my professor, Dr. Schur, for this challenge. It has taken almost a year to post this essay for fear of people reading such intense and internal thoughts but I will knowing that all of us deal with what life gives us, losses and grief are forces that unite us all at some point in time.

Identity is a strange phenomenon. The dictionary defines identity as the state of having unique identifying characteristics held by no other person or thing. These special characteristics can be described through imagery, possibly distorting the truth or shielding the viewer from the true magnitude of a moment. Identity is too complex for a photograph to capture. Life happens in single frames captured by our eyes, sent to our brain and turned into thoughts, opinions and most importantly, memories. Miraculously, photographs have the ability to instantly reveal our catalogued memories that are locked in our subconscious mind. Through the use of a camera our identity is documented for eternity. History is preserved and exposed in a photograph. Life is a dance between the past and the present that takes delicate balance. Opening my leather box of family photographs feels like revisiting a storehouse of tragic memories and feelings held deep down inside me. An extremely intimate slice of my identity exists solely through these images now. This is the beginning of my story. My family has remained a source of my greatest happiness and deepest sense of loss. Staring deeper into these photographs, I see a family of dreamers with no concept of mortality.

The family portrait, professionally taken when I was just a baby, shows my mother Carolyn and my older siblings in our best outfits. This represents the ideal image of my childhood. Who knows how long my mother had to save up for this 8 x 10 and some wallets displaying her beautiful family. The brown-toned background and fabric surrounds us, my mothers embrace and quiet look of contentment shows proudly on our faces. It is a photograph of new beginnings. A quietly reserved expression is adorned on my oldest sister's face of the same complexion as my mother's, born to a different father than the three youngest children. Proud to be the protector of us, she presents the only toothy smile of the bunch. My mother had the most mesmerizing emerald eyes that were deep in thought, severe in gratitude. I can still smell her scent--patchouli, bringing her almond shaped, green-eyed gaze to the forefront of my mind. Her hair is thick and curly with a streak of grey reaching out from the right side of her bangs. A big crocodile-tear hangs on just below my left lash line. This is the single photo where all five of us exist together. No one could see the imperfections, the struggle, the complexities that existed in our lives. Photographs hold illusions of perfection hostage for the viewer to witness no matter the reality. Unlike the box of photos with a more realistic appearance: hand-me-down clothing, barefooted and sweaty from a full day of play and discovery, this family portrait portrays a touched-up version of our life where innocence remained.

The 26th day of September was the life-altering day that changed my identity forever. At just 35, Carolyn was a strikingly beautiful and vivacious single white mother on welfare working and attending horticulture classes at The University of Illinois, Champaign-Urbana. She had three children with my father, Rudy, their tumultuous and highly abusive relationship is the reason we left him. We ventured north from Los Angeles, to regroup in a women's shelter in Tocoma, Washington soon after I was born. I have no recollection of my father. By 1986, my mom and the four of us were just getting back on our feet, having moved to Champaign after my mother's research for the best place to raise "mulatto" children turned out to be the Illinois town. It is this same level of persistence and relentless drive that I see in my portraits of her.

As the oldest daughter of a Harvard-made surgeon with a secure country club lifestyle, my mother dealt with her fair share of issues growing up. Fiercely independent, she decided to take the road less traveled and lived her life on her own terms no matter the recourse. She fell madly in love with my father, starting a family and never relied on her family name. My mother's identity was a unique and constant work in progress. Simply put, she was extraordinary. With a warm energy, she was a mixture of open reservation and unassuming intelligence. She traveled in search of herself and became alarmingly aware of the world around her. Passionate, her love was to better those around her when she could. She taught struggling mothers on welfare how to better nourish their children on a budget and decided to go back to finish her degree at age 35. She was naturally gifted artistically, a plethora of photographs illustrate her ability with beautifully crafted tie-dyed hangings in front of our windows, her embroidery and handmade creations hidden behind her--both seen as pieces of art frozen in time forever.

No one could have told me that my life wasn't going to always be how the neatly placed pictures in that leather box. My early memories are jolted as I flip through the multitude of family moments secured in time by developed film. The most vivid memories of my early days are so deeply embedded in my conscious mind I am still amazed at the power of the brain. My favorite memories don't need a visual memento to accompany them. My childhood was spent emulating my older siblings who were inseparable. We shared joyful walks down the sidewalk to the neighborhood park around the corner, following the chain-linked fences and street lights. Summer nights were spent waiting in anticipation for nightfall so we could catch fireflies in large glass jars. Our life together was short-lived, almost like a faint dream that I could never revisit except in these old photos.

That day in late September began like any other and ended with the death of my mother, Carolyn. She died from an aneurysm in her brain, a weak blood vessel that burst filling her brain with blood, making death a certainty. The doctors took her off of her respirator so her wishes of organ donation would be possible. Her organs, skin and eyes were harvested for research, her final act of kindness to those less fortunate. Death destroyed a part of my identity and left me embarking on a journey to discover who I am. It is for that reason, photographs of her became so vital to discovering who I was then, who I am today and the woman I am yet to become. Carolyn left behind four young children, Alexis, 12, Taifa, 9, Allewa, 5, and myself, 3. At 3, I was too young to comprehend the magnitude of the loss of my mother. It's odd to think that events occur and you spend the rest of your life picking up the pieces both mentally and emotionally thus changing who you become. Life has an odd way of shifting at just the moment where everything is thrown on its axis, my life included.

Even with my private collection of family photographs taken so long ago, I won't ever get to reveal certain aspects of who I am since aspects of who she was will never be revealed. Knowing my mother's favorite song, reliving her best memory or relishing in her greatest achievement will never be known for certain despite these photos existing. To reveal her deepest, darkest secrets would be uncover an additional piece of my internal makeup that is my puzzle called identity. My family photographs will never get to tell their side of the story or be understood entirely. I search the faces of my brother and two sisters in deep reflection in hopes of finding clues that will manifest into lifelike sequences. A wildly exuberant smile permanently placed on my brother's face is a staple of many Polaroids. I can almost hear the rambunctious yelps of excitement that only kids can make. I'm transfixed on the energy in our eyes, the depth of our stares even as small children. These lasting impressions on film are the most prized possessions I have, they often leave me frustrated at the mystery that still remains. A world of unanswered questions combine with undeniable happiness in each image of my life when my family was together. I wonder what my life, my goals, my personality would have been with greater exposure to her gentle disposition, my siblings influence.

Carolyn is a distant dream that is regal, alluring and unforgettable. Sitting here, I thank my mother for the life she chose to live and realize just how great her identity shaped my own. Today, I enjoy the private times of personal reflection where I strain to remember all that I can of my childhood. I capture my life through the lens of my camera as often as I can, making sure to leave evidence that I existed in this world. The leather box of Polaroids, the 8 x 10 portrait of my mother and my siblings are preserved permanently and leave an everlasting impression on me. Carolyn is and will always be my mother, and for that I am forever grateful. I love her from the deepest part of who I am and she will continue to live on through the assortment of timeless family photographs that I cherish with all that I am.

red velvet + vintage

2011-07-09T07:23:00.000-07:00

For as long as I can remember, one of my favorite things to do is play dress-up. When I stepped into Red Velvet the smell of vintage finds and delicate dresses are met with racks of one-of-a-kind pieces and handmade treasures that fill the 3,000 square feet of this boutique. It's a fabulous way to spend an afternoon and let me not forget to mention the actual red velvet cupcakes and other delicious delights and sweet treats in their very own sweets section. I felt dainty, elegant and retro in these duds from the 70's and 80's. Shop Red Velvet fashions today!

an authentic life

2011-04-15T08:50:00.000-07:00

Drew Emery is an award-winning filmmaker who came to class and inspired me today. He spoke of the delicate balance between authenticity and imagination in the film industry. He spoke of his time growing up as a gay little boy with no real sense of himself. Today, he has created a wonderfully inspiring documentary called Inlaws & Outlaws which has been screened 400+ times throughout the country. I enjoyed his conversational style of discussion and got me thinking about the power of telling your story...

dogwood in bloom

2011-04-03T17:30:00.000-07:00

Spring is here. Officially! The day when the beach cruiser's spiderwebs were brushed away happened this weekend... and the Galloway Trail got an eager cyclist joining the ranks of the other cardio-loving folks in the area. In the midst of work and school I took some time to enjoy rays that have a magical ability to renew me and make me smile. The dogwood in the front yard is in full bloom and is amazing at sunset...

a nostalgic night out

2011-03-28T08:33:00.000-07:00

I had a mind-boggling moment at Metro Grill. While sitting at the bar with my besty last Thursday a group of gentlemen just happened to strike up a conversation that took a surprising turn. Although the discussion began with the usual mindless chatter that went from our ages to what we "do" , eventually our talks turned to something much more significant. Going out is always fun simply due to the fact that you never know who you're going to meet, especially since moving back to my hometown. My mindset is often wrong in assuming that I am still living elsewhere, not ever knowing anyone that knows me, or my family. Not Thursday. This group of friends all went to the same high school that I went to (my 10-year reunion is this year!) and were lifelong friends who were enjoying a night out to remember a fallen friend of theirs.

I wasn't ready for the reality of my question when I asked, "Do you know _____? They went to Glendale about the same time you did." I watched as the man's face shifted into a drunken joy that I wasn't prepared for. "Well, hell yeah...and how do you know him?" I quickly answered with, "That's my family- he's my uncle!" The mood was instantly different, lighter, easy and honest. He loved my family and began sharing nostalgic stories of concerts, otherwise forgotten moments from his teenage years that my own family never shared with me. They knew my mother, the days of the country club, my grandparents. It was a rare treat that turned this otherwise regular evening out into a mind-altering night at Metro.

caught up

2011-03-03T15:45:00.000-08:00

Through the untimely catching of a head cold I got some much needed couch time resulting in me catching up on not-so-new movies that are new to me or I just felt like re-watching. Yes, the best part of this thing called a common cold has definately been the movie/popcorn that has gone down.

Some new films that I loved watching *in no particular order*:

1. An Education-- amazingly true

2. The Witches of Eastwick-- I (heart) Cher

3. Julie & Julia- Meryl Streep's astoundingly good

4. Moonstruck-- did I mention how much I adore Cher in this movie?

5. Paranormal Activity 2- not scary until the last scene

6. Grown-Ups

7. Eat Pray Love- I was a bit tipsy so it was better than most critics thought

8. Notes of a Scandal- scandalous fun... and Dame JD and Cate Blanchett are brilliant together

My nose is raw but I've managed to get some films in that I wanted to see. It's all in how you see things, isn't it?

the persistence of memory

2011-03-01T14:38:00.000-08:00

Hold the phone.... Temple Grandin is speaking at Drury University on Thursday! And for anyone who isn't familiar with perhaps the most inpirational woman who happens to be autistic, Temple Grandin, Ph.D., has been called “the most accomplished and well-known adult with autism in the world.” Her autism has given her a unique perspective into the lives of stock animals, and half of the cattle in the U.S. are handled in facilities designed by Grandin. Grandin, the author of six books, has been the focus of much media attention over the past few months. Grandin was named a “hero” by Time magazine and was placed on their list of the 100 most influential people of 2010. I'm so excited to hear this woman speak and I still have to watch the HBO movie where Claire Danes portrays this incredible woman. Below is their photo after Claire Danes won the Emmy for her portrayal of Temple.

v.day.delights

2011-02-14T10:21:00.000-08:00

I stumbled onto this site where custom-made stationary is delightful, delicious and dainty. Romeo and Jules bespoke stationary uses traditional methods of letterpress to embellish your customized stationary for any occassion.

With London style, a wonderful story of how they cam to be, and impeccable taste, one-of-a-kind stationary has never looked so good. Find your inspiration on their blog.

Photos courtesy of Romeo and Jules

I (heart) Adele

2011-02-03T14:13:00.000-08:00

snow days

2011-02-02T08:20:00.000-08:00

the blizzard has come and gone leaving deep trenches of snow in its wake. i love snow, but getting around is still impossible today. cabin fever hasn't set in yet but the snow has made getting things done inside a much easier task. i may have to walk to work today but it sure is a pretty sight.

peep this

2011-02-01T09:35:00.001-08:00

THE BEST IDEA EVER!!!

finally, a place online where you can create the perfect pump! milk & honey is the place for you! what a genius idea... rushed shoe-hunting no more, ladies! This website is your place for custom slingbacks, peep-toes, textures and heel height!

Their website says:
Love shoes? Design your own!
Welcome to the land of milk & honey™ where you can design and create your very own shoes. Start by choosing one of our classic silhouettes and customize from there; you pick the color, material, heel height, and embellishments to create your perfect shoes!

and of course... for your viewing enjoyment I had to add the tune we all remember!

red velvet is delicious...

2011-01-26T12:32:00.000-08:00

Springfield's Historic C-Street has undergone a new vintage store where my friend, Debbie Bunch's "The Style" once stood. In its place stands a wonderfully artsy endeavor called Red Velvet where charming clothing, handmade designs and yes, even cupcakes inhabit. With the same fun flair yet obvious transformation, this historically beautiful building that I've often used for photo shoots is a sight to see! The ladies of Red Velvet even have their own blog.

Next week, I will be modeling some vintage dresses for their website and store, photos to follow! I'm excited to play dress up and be included in their latest photo shoot/glam session~stop in and see treats at RED VELVET today!

touched by Blake

2011-01-25T11:30:00.000-08:00

*Illustrated by William Blake

The Little Black Boy

by William Blake (1757-1827)

My mother bore me in the southern wild,
And I am black, but O my soul is white!
White as an angel is the English child,
But I am black, as if bereaved of light.
My mother taught me underneath a tree,
And, sitting down before the heat of day,
She took me on her lap and kissed me,
And, pointing to the East, began to say:

'Look on the rising sun: there God does live,
And gives His light, and gives His heat away,
And flowers and trees and beasts and men receive
Comfort in morning, joy in the noonday.

'And we are put on earth a little space,
That we may learn to bear the beams of love;
And these black bodies and this sunburnt face
Are but a cloud, and like a shady grove.

'For, when our souls have learned the heat to bear,
The cloud will vanish, we shall hear His voice,
Saying, "Come out from the grove, my love and care,
And round my golden tent like lambs rejoice."'

Thus did my mother say, and kissed me,
And thus I say to little English boy.
When I from black, and he from white cloud free,
And round the tent of God like lambs we joy,

I'll shade him from the heat till he can bear
To lean in joy upon our Father's knee;
And then I'll stand and stroke his silver hair,
And be like him, and he will then love me.

*The great thing about one of my spring classes is the initiation of great poetry, authors and literature. I love William Blake's mystic essence in all his works, but this one had special significance and meaning to me.

the line-up

2011-01-20T10:30:00.000-08:00

The biggest blessing and best person living in LA is Anthony Johnson, actor/building manager extraordinaire! He emailed me this clip, for the premiere of Curb your Enthusiasm and I wanted to share. This clip is super funny and he does in fact look a bit like Larry David!

warhol vs the fro

2010-10-14T09:30:00.001-07:00

this time last year, the 'fro got chopped, at least partly.
thanks to my macbook, this was the outcome.

long time...

2010-10-13T14:39:00.000-07:00

time has a way slipping through your fingers, counting down without your even knowing. lots has happened since the last time i wrote... i began a new chapter: i am a student again and it feels good, sort of like stretching a muscle that has been used yet somehow forgotten along the daily usage. thoughts that haven't been retrieved and energy that hasn't been spent on studying, writing and examining life's many circumstances are all part of being a student. studious things happen to those who attend school, i suppose.

you become aware of the lessons discussed in class, things otherwise hidden suddenly become clear and you are aware of new things. the beauty of being a student, aside from having the internal thrill of exclaiming, "Yep, i'm a student," when someone asks you what the hell you're doing with your life, there is an internal drive and purpose that academia creates. working a job, attending acting classes, driving to and from events and things aren't the same as sitting in a classroom and submerging yourself in completely new material, new subjects that you may not have ever thought about before. school is too expensive, this we know, but it is worth it. the price you pay to become a more aware, conscious and knowing person is priceless, really.

so here's to the tests, the stress of being at the top of your game intellectually, and having the courage to set foot in a classroom with kids almost half you age. Yes, half. if you've ever wanted to feel old, simply decide to continue your education and hope that you and your teacher didn't graduate high school in the same year. 2010 has been a great year largely in part to returning to the academic world where pushing yourself to find your passion is strongly encouraged. good luck finding that in the workforce, unless you are extremely lucky!

yellow owl on decor8

2010-06-11T10:40:00.000-07:00

I love decor8.... here is a great source for eco-friendly paper goods and other fun things called Yellow Owl.

sun room REVAMP

2010-06-04T06:35:00.000-07:00

A great woman and friend asked me to come over and work magic on her spacious and overly pollenated jacuzzi/sunroom. If you want a great cleaner, market america uses eco-friendly SNAP! highly concentrated cleansers and after 5 hours, my hands were moist, undried out and smelled great! (www.marketamerica.com/marissawhitley) + search for SNAP!

Here's a breakdown of what had to happen for her to enjoy her back room again!

Space re-arrangement
a deep clean of all screens and surfaces, the vinyl siding, carpet
Placement of candles+decorative items on tables for added appeal
Putting chairs at the opposite end and placing things in the corners add warmth!
Pulling existing drapery to a uniform look helps aesthetics, or adding them adds comfort and privacy. Color is key!

*Before*

*After*

vintage rocks

2010-06-03T14:45:00.000-07:00

vintage 1.enduring excellence, appeal, and importance 2. of a style or method formerly in vogue 3. set apart an individual or group

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While on a weekend getaway I happened upon a quant little thrift store/flea market that I had never seen before. Inside were underpriced finds that I had to swoop up! Now, the vintage swatches of fabric, buttons and London tin are slowly finding homes in my bedroom... all the while wondering where they were all from, who had purchased and worn the individual buttons, the history that each holds. Vintage anything is coming back in such a big way, recycling styles from earlier years, looks that were here before.

blink

2010-06-01T08:09:00.000-07:00

Life is filled with fleeting moments that we spend a lifetime wishing we could relive, have back, remember forever. I used to capture moments in my mind, thinking to myself, "remember this moment, just as it is now". My family vacation to Costa Rica, my standing onstage waiting for the emcee to announce "Miss Glendale Teen USA, Marissa Whitley", watching my nieces put on a fashion show for me in my living room. Moments that happen in a blink of an eye that change who we are in some way. We live for these moments... bask in their glory, learn from their magnitude, escape in their happiness. Every day brings another layer of those times to life. Today is June 1st, hard to believe, but I wanted to share some latest moments that I always want to remember.

My first time to Eureka Springs, AR--> loved the vibe!

On top of the world in Chicago during a photo shoot with Janna Giacoppo.

Being called for TOP 5 during the live telecast of Miss Teen USA 2001.

Fighting with Charles Barclay at my first visit to Las Vegas.

My nieces playing with my wigs! Too much!

Photo Shoot at Zuma Beach, CA

Enjoying Uncle Gene and Colorado's Garden of the Gods

Looking at Venice Beach Boardwalk from the Ocean... I miss the energy of Venice Beach.

in loving memory

2010-05-31T10:12:00.000-07:00

This is where my mother is buried. It was a beautiful day and the memory of her was pure, clear and focused. I miss her in every way possible but the best thing I have uncovered is an audio tape of her from 1983, possibly 1984. Her voice is soft, kind yet noticeably definitive and sure.

My sister's coming to visit next month and my big brother is joining us once again, too long since the last time we got to see his face. Today is a day of remembrance, celebration of life, rejoicing in the glory of His grace. Happy Memorial Day to everyone who has lost someone they love. Their memory lives on through us, just as it should.

walk down memory lane

2010-05-19T12:45:00.000-07:00

Photo and video editing at www.OneTrueMedia.com

Watching the MISS USA Competition (they are trying not to call them "pageants" anymore) made me think back to my winning moment LIVE on CBS some 9 years ago. WOW! The live telecast, the performances from the then-hottest band, the anticipation of the 51 girls... it all brought back so many memories. The oober early mornings to rehearsing dance steps and walking patterns for the 3 phases of competition....envisioning the crown being placed on my head. Ah, there's nothing like live TV, nothing like a chance at being named the best of a group of people... being set apart by people who just got to know a part of who you are. The stage is so large, the lights so bright, the unknown so exciting!

I had to watch with more butterflies in my stomach than when I myself was walking across the stage in my bikini, my amazing gown from this year's sponsor, Sherri Hill. And like the winner, I felt like a mermaid in my white gown with Swarovsky crystals circling the knee area...the two hour telecast flying by as the ladies dwindled down from 15 to 5. Then, one by one, being named and led to the side of the stage as I remained. An out-of-body experience that no one could prepare for. No ONE! Not even the most confident, poised or dedicated could really swallow the power of that moment. A part of me always wished that Donald Trump himself could know what that felt like. After all, he was the one providing young women with that one-in-a-million feeling.

This competition changed the trajectory of my life, from school to living in New York City 11 days prior to 9/11 happening, to living with Miss USA and Miss Universe. I matured so much in those 365 days from a bright-eyed 18-year old girl from Missouri to a humbled young woman with a greater sense of purpose and self. Trump is a businessman yes, but he also has capitalized on changing women's lives through service.

This past Sunday was a reminder of how much my life was changed through entering, vying and winning the Miss Teen USA Competition that August day in 2001. I never imagined that I would win, let alone get to live in NYC, hug Muhammad Ali, speak to 100,000+ young people about who I was and how they could dream bigger, leave my mark on the world in some way. Sunday had 3 ladies who were chosen to represent their state. Vanbros & Associates were their state director's just like mine... Thanks to my pageant family, Vanbros & Associates for the putting this together with all of their titleholders crowning moments! I am so honored to be a Vannatta girl and their 2nd of 4 National Pageant winners from their state.

funnier side of life

2010-05-17T08:04:00.000-07:00

On our way to Colorado, my big sis and I made a seemingly boring night in a motel pretty amusing thanks to the laptop's image capabilities. I love my sister, she's such a sweet person with the heart of gold! I wish I was more like her... our times together just make me remember how amazing she is....

a look back: maya standel

2010-05-14T08:47:00.000-07:00

Visit Maya's website for more images.

spring is in the air

2010-05-12T10:03:00.000-07:00

I feel a bit like a crack head would when trying to find a hotspot to indulge oneself in the "goods". I too have been trying to find a hotspot but for wireless internet. I found it. Yes, I am victorious as I sit, windows rolled down, gusts of cool breeze flowing through my car as I type like a mad woman trying to get my thoughts out before my battery dies or my brain shuts off, one or the other. I have discovered a need to write in a day, something I started in grade school after my aunt bought me a ME (Mary Engelbreit) journal from The Market on Campbell Street some 20 years ago. Geez, that hurt. Anyway, today thanks to technological advances, I no longer feel the need to open those journals, instead I have come the Macbook to what is now my online journal.

I wanted to share a few things that has happened since spring has sprung not to mention just get back into the swing of things with my blog. I am patiently awaiting the DSL connection that AT&T will allow me on the 24th of this month so until then, I frantically search out wireless connections that will grant me my journal experience! Call me a crackhead, you are too. So, lots has happened amidst the paperwork shuffle and mad dash to here,there, everywhere. I am pondering a job with a TV station here in Springfield that doesn't really seem worth the daily stress of being "on-camera"... you know, the thoughts of imperfection that creep in when you look in the mirror in the morning-my hair isn't what I want it to be, my acne seems to have flaired up AGAIN, and I would really like to see this muscle just a tad bit more. It's daunting the task of sizing yourself up in a world that's so consumed with the exterior.

Secondly, I have completed the challenge of planning, plotting and finishing the paperwork for continuing my education. Yes, it is complete and I am officially a student again. It feels amazing to know that I will be flexing my academic muscle again, speech communication and minoring in entrepreneurship on August 25, 2010. The first question on everyone's mind, "How are you going to afford it?" Well, I applied for scholarships and thank God, they all turned up to be awarded and thus, school at a private University as of today is PAID for!!! There are upsides to being ancient and going back to college after all!

Thirdly, I have started my own business that has already been a great catalyst for meeting people in the area, learning about a new company called Market America and using and selling a beautiful cosmetic line called MOTIVES. I have found that through this company, I am my own un-franchised business owner and have all of the tools and training I need already in place. It reminds me of the daily goals I had when selling my fundraising items for choir, orchestra, science club, basketball media guides and the Miss Missouri Teen USA 2001 Pageant. Finding people to listen isn't the issue, I have found... it's finding people with an open mind who want to take a risk and try a new product. But, the great thing about MOTIVES, is they can try it with me applying their makeup and then shopping online for free and receiving 2-35% cashback on their purchase! I love helping folks save $ and get what they want so it's a win-win!

So, spring has come and gone, things are always moving and progressing and I am thankful for the chance to do each of the above things mentioned. I love writing and sharing~ I think everyone should have a documentation of their life... Enigmatic Bliss is my forum, I guess.

P.S. Oh, and the hype concerning the Miss USA Pageant photos being too racy... it's Donald's way of getting recognition for owning a pageant and NBC simply wants to plug a pageant that most people aside from pageant-goers could care less about. Let's face it, Donald plugs more things than Elton John or RuPaul combined.

P.P.S. I have a new roommate who is just a dear and she just graduated high school, just wanted to send good vibes her way! Miss T is her name and she even put my clean dishes away last night-awesome.

P.P.P.S. If I sneeze one more time due to the high level of pollen in the air I might scream. Gotta love spring in the Ozarks. If you don't know, the most extreme hot to cold ratio of any state it's pretty fair to say. It was 78 degrees by 8 am. Oh, I had a fitting for the Harem & Company, I am modeling in their fashion show tomorrow night benefitting the Friends of the Zoo... the best view of the Queen City tomorrow night. I'm looking forward to dressing up for a good cause. Happy hump day, everyone!

a world without mothers

2010-05-11T07:57:00.000-07:00

*My Grandmother, Hazel, holding my mother, Carolyn.

can you imagine the world without mothers? not just mothers, but true mothers. mothers who want to teach their children the true value of a dollar, the real value of character, the life lessons that only mothers can instill in their children. offspring bask in the laughter of their mothers, strive to make their mothers proud. i can't imagine the world without them... the women in the world who would do anything to protect, honor, and love their little ones with such a joy and inner peace that only mothers can have for their children. acceptance is such a vital part of being a mother... you accept the lack of sleep, the search for challenges, the difficult times where you may not have enough money, time or energy to be the mother you want to be. but they are still present, still there, able to be a valid and supportive part of their children's lives... the rest are just extras.

*Hazel with Carolyn~one of my favorite photos.

i sit in a coffee shop thinking that the celebrated day for mothers has come and gone, yet now that it's passed my mind continues to dwell on the importance of a true mother. not only to their children, but to the world as a whole. the documentary, babies, has come out and on four seperate continents, the security of having a mother is the same. it's true. where would we be without them? wars wouldn't be present if everyone had a true mother to love them, share their deepest desires and hopes for their children. children wouldn't ever feel the need to join outside families aka gangs or other uncivilized methods of feeling loved. isn't that all that life and the world as we know it is striving for?

*an angel sitting on a bench in the cemetery where my mother is buried.

my time in LA made me realized this easy and blatant honesty.... no matter what we do, where we are, who we are with, what we want to become... all we truly want and need and spend our entire lives searching for in some facet or another is love. the beatles tune enters my head and the overall idea behind mother's day for me is to thank the one woman in your life (if you are lucky enough to have one) for putting you first, for tying your shoes before she taught you how to, for never making excuses for never being there, for being present more often than giving you one, for always being open to the possibilities of your life, for never giving up on you, for surrendering her own insecurities to support you, for disciplining herself enough to a loving, able, and stable woman in your world.

*my beautiful mother, Carolyn, age 5.

for me, mother's day is a great reminder of the mother i had that gave me such a deep appreciation for life. through her death, i hope the women put in my world have seen my mother, carolyn, in me. her younger sister became the woman in my world that has let me fly, let me learn on my own, let me travel, let me lead, let me fall, let me follow, let me understand the real world. cynthia shared her life with me, gave me a chance, showed me that amidst the rubble and ash of what life can hand us, together we can stand up and decide in our hearts and minds that the world is a hard place that is worth fighting to live in. the world has seen its share of death, destruction, devilish forces that can hold to people, places and things. wars have been fought and lives have been destroyed yet the eminent force of good overcomes that of evil. i believe that the best parts of us have been created by our mothers, those that love us unconditionally no matter the distance between us. mothers are the greatest parts of our hearts and minds, the loneliest days are those where we yearn for a mothers touch, kiss, embrace.

the luckiest people in this are the people who can say, "i had an exceptional mother. she loves me for who i truly am." so many want that in their lives. mothers have the power to enable us or disable us unless we find others to supplement that void. i had an exceptional mother, an extraordinary 2nd mother, and about 20 other phenomenal women who taught me what i know. living on my own was fulfilling to me because of the village i had that prayed, laughed and shared their life with me. my siblings pushed me to be a survivor, as they are survivors. i don't know where i would be without the mothers in my world. a part of me feels that my mother knew that a village would be there... mothers make the world what it is... and lack of.

to all of the mothers in the world, every day is your day--just as it should be.

Easter Delight

2010-04-09T07:34:00.000-07:00

This Easter Sunday was an eventful one. Waking up, I was excited to attend church with my besty Morgan and her family while hearing The Message from Pastor Foote, a client and newfound friend from an organizational job! It was amazing, the 4 girl choir sounded like 20+ people were up behind him and the energy that you get in church is unlike any other. It was a really great service and then I headed out to Republic to see my boyfriend's family. The sun shone through the clouds and it felt like we were being smiled upon. I remember the mad dash for eggs in my grandma's backyard and had her in my thoughts all day. I miss those family gatherings and times of watching my grandma cook up some fried chicken and green beans, not to mention the mishaps that ended in fresh uncut pies being dropped on their face in front of the fridge! All of these memories made this Easter a good one. I wish my brother and sister were here to celebrate with us- maybe next year! So, here is to a late but better than never Happy Easter!

Happy happy happy!

Headed out to Republic, MO... old barns are kinda cool and who knows how long they have been around.

Down in Galloway, this was a shot taken going across the bridge as we waited for a train to pass.

all made up

2010-03-26T15:55:00.000-07:00

I LOVE MAKEUP!!! It's like coffee... it never lets you down and gives you that special something to make your day go better. Makeup has always been a fun outlet for me. From the time when people would mistake me for a boy until I started wearing it, makeup has always been a creative way for me to draw. On paper, my abilities are slim to put it nicely... so when I discovered the challenge and instant gratification of making a face look unique, mysterious or shimmery using makeup, I knew I had uncovered a passion that could make others feel and look good! Now that I do makeup as one of my freelance jobs, I wanted to post some images thanks to BIG SMILE PHOTO and Mrs. Garwitz! Enjoy moments from their wedding.

fashionation

2010-03-25T07:57:00.000-07:00

For those in need of some spring fashion ideas or just to watch footage from 417 Magazine's Fashionation that took place at ZAN last Friday night, here you go!
It was a lot of fun~ complimentary drinks and a meet and greet beforehand made the evening full of frills and thrills. I did double duty walking the shaky runway for Harem & Company (Nicole Miller) and then was featured at the end since I was featured as one of 417-lands Best Dressed.

stylish for spring

2010-03-15T14:50:00.000-07:00

Most 26-year-old women would do just about anything to fit into clothes they wore 10 years ago. Lucky for Marissa Whitley, she still wears the same size, and even many of the same pieces. “Most of them are dry clean–only and good fabric, so they still look good,” she says. She has always liked classic styles, so many of her high school clothes don’t look outdated. “I wouldn’t say I have trendy stuff,” she says. “I have classic pieces that I can mix with trendy stuff.”
Marissa, who does a variety of freelance work, graduated from Glendale High School in 2001. She lives in mid-Springfield now, but a Miss Teen USA crown and various television and modeling jobs have taken her all across the country for the past 10 years. And this is when she found many of the signature clothing items in her closet. “I would be roaming a city and stop in little boutiques here and there and find great stuff,” she says. “I love one-of-a-kind pieces.”

burst of orange

2010-02-04T12:34:00.000-08:00

The Harem & Company has kept me busy with modeling their latest fashions for 417 Magazine. Here is the latest ad- full of springlike fabric, light and airy in a fresh burst of orange... the gold studding around the halter neckline makes it really special. Thanks to Mr. Mike Wingo (photographer) for the great shots, and be sure to visit 417 online to view the ad! And a big thank you to TOUCH Restaurant for the incredible mural/ambience.

times are a changin'

2010-01-17T12:09:00.000-08:00

things are happening. the sun hasn't shown today and I am feeling a little down. 2010 is upon us and the new year has brought along with it times of deeper thought, different desires, and a longing for quiet. Maybe it's winters fault. Or maybe being a single year older has brought a yearning for something more. Not any one thing, just more in general.

the house of my dreams is now mine and the packing up of my belongings one more time may have something to do with it. along with everchanging days, I have added dog-sitter, makeup artist and stager to my resume since the last time I wrote.

blessings continue to happen on a daily basis. i am so thankful for this life that I have. I simply feel that there is a deeper calling on my heart. might be the season, may be the change of scenerey to a smaller town. perhaps a lack of a more social existence. i want for something i can't put my finger on.

this birthday brought with it my family, a house to live in and a more stable future. maybe stability is what's so new.... different. familiarity isn't so bad, just odd. lots of things happen day-to-day... i have missed writing on my online journal. i have lots to post... sorry for the delay. the holidays have come and gone, memories have been made, and so now i am here writing to you.

God bless all of those in Haiti, those who have lost loved ones, and those who will never have a proper burial or remembrance from those that loved them. unsettled, i listen to music, sip coffee and wonder if i will find what could make this feeling go away.

kings in kc

2009-11-11T07:23:00.001-08:00

Kansas City was a really cool trip. Only 3 hours away, it felt like I had gone to the depths of a dirty city where anything I wanted to do was possible. We spent our 2 days driving around the Bottoms, as they call it there, where the old city lies and lofts and businesses now reside. The weather was cool, dreary and rainy but it went with the feeling of the bottoms.

The Corner was the spot for breakfast and the old cafe was like going back in time- I love that! The Kings of Leon concert was incredible, just as awesome as their LA show. They are AMAZING live and the lead singer turned 40 that night so he was extra lively!

happenings...

2009-11-03T14:59:00.000-08:00

This past weekend was a lot of fun, full of events and happenings that made the weekend fly by. The Miss Missouri USA Pageant came to town as 70 young women vyed for the titles (both Miss and Teen) strutted their stuff across the Juanita K. Hammons Hall stage Saturday and Sunday nights. The winners crowned were deserving, wearing gowns fit for queens and answering questions like pros. It's always nice to see my state directors, old pageant sisters and friends and families from the past! We've gotten old, had children, gotten married and moved to different parts of the country but one thing remains: we will always be VANBROS girls!!!

I was able to bring my camera along on a fun Sunday excursion prior to the pageant and did a bit of work on Saturday. The fall is so great, and now that it's November, the long bouts of rain have seized and in its place, balmy spring-like sun and mid- 60 degree weather. I LOVE IT!

Halloween was a blast, I have lots of pictures to upload to the web and as October came to an end, I welcomed November with open arms, as Christmas is close by. 417 Magazine's December Issue should be out soon, look for the Harem & Company ad featuring Mike Wingo Photography and me as the model. Today was a Bass Pro photo shoot for their Spring 2010 Catalog so that should be cool, my first Bass Pro catalog! Thanksgiving is always a good time, family is such a blessing and now that I'm home again, I really treasure the times I get to share with them. Happy November, everybody...stay well.

this 'n that

2009-10-28T07:13:00.001-07:00

*taken at the Finley River by Riverside Restuarant. I love old bridges.

*taken over this past weekend, I LOVE FALL!!!

* taken at Fellows Lake on an early morning photo shoot for Bass Pro Shops. Yep, sittin' with a bunch of girls in a TAHOE is my idea of work!

Spanish Colonial

2009-10-27T09:49:00.000-07:00

What Architectural Personality are you? HDTV asks.

I'm a lively Spanish Colonial! And, it's odd because I have always been drawn to this style of house prior to taking this 10 question quiz.

Like a Spanish Colonial home, you are warm with an eye toward the romance of living. While you are traditional and can be a little introverted, you are also enlivened with impulsive flairs of color that amuse and energize your friends and family. Spanish Colonial homes take a simple construction style and add artistic details like painted tiles, iron fixtures, and huge carved doors denoting, like you, a love of art and individuality. Your combination of down-to-earth fun and elegance puts everyone at ease.Learn more .

Hazel Wood

2009-10-21T09:55:00.000-07:00

My grandmother, Hazel, passed away yesterday. She fought a hard fight, but is with Him safe and sound today. A mix of emotions come over me, part sadness for the loss of such an amazing woman, part happiness as I rejoice in knowing that she is finally at rest and peaceful in eternal life with her Creator. She was such a tremendous force of nature, vivacious, caring, supportive and a critic of all in her world. She wanted the best for those she knew and loved. She was a dedicated wife and mother, a continued supporter as the Grandma and a devoted Nurse to her patients at St. John's.

I will forever know her as Grandma, and I miss her already. I am thankful for having had her this long, and I know that I am who I am in great part to her. I treasure our times, her sense of humor, her interesting life that she lived. You never know what you have until it's gone, but in this case, we all knew what we had... we just didn't want to let it go this soon. She is forever a part of me and I hope she knew how much I loved her. Her eyes lit up a room, her laugh was contagious and her spirit was one that was not only seen but felt. She was fiesty flame of love, devotion, unwavering strength,heartbreaking losses and joyful successes. She was and will forever be, my grandma.

fall faces by Fujah

2009-10-15T10:12:00.000-07:00

Ed Biamonte has an online magazine called Fujah. I modeled fall makeup from Estee Lauder, here it is!

My makeup was awesome and really got me in the Fall Spirit!!!

My makeup used is listed below.

Eyes:Pure Color Eye Shadow in Ivy, Emerald Metallic, Gold Metallic and Candlelight MetallicDouble Wear Stay in Place Eye Liner in BronzeSumptuous Mascara in Black and EmeraldCheeks:Deep SpicePeach NuanceLips:Double Wear Stay in Place Lip Pencil in MochaDouble Wear Stay in Place Lipstick in GingerOpulent Shimmer Gloss in GoldOverall Look: Dramatic

Thanks, Ed!!!

goodbye summer...

2009-10-08T12:46:00.000-07:00

The morning is the most incredible time on the lake. Table Rock Lake, to be more exact. The morning begins at 4:45 am... a wee bit early but it's worth it once you put the boat in, unhook the fishing pole bait and start the slow but exciting task of catching a keeper! I took these in August, before the fall air had crept into the breeze but the sunrise is the most romantic and honestly breath-taking experience. Flying cranes, herrins, jumping fish and the sound of nature make for a great time out on the water.

My first summer back in the Ozarks was made from my early sunrises, long days in the metal John boat, and the romanticly lazy afternoons amidst the wild. "Mama Maybelle" made fishing my new obsession... she was my 5 lb large-mouth bass that hooked me on fishing! Now that it's fall, I will reminisce on the summer of 2009 with fond memories... October here we come.

halloween gift guide

2009-10-07T00:55:00.000-07:00

Etsy has a scary-good Halloween gift guide perfect for anyone in the mood for skeletons, creepy home decor and everything in between. I love Etsy, you know that someone has taken the time to hand make each of the listed items and comes with that personal touch!

Some of my favorites...
1.
SoulSisters, Hand poured Pumpkin Spice double scented candle. Pumpkin Spice is a warm blend of molasses, ginger, cinnamon, allspice, nutmeg, ground cloves and pumpkin. A beautiful fall or winter scent to warm your home.

2.
acenal, hand made stained glass on 5 x 7 inch plywood finished in black grout that's ready to be framed. Halloween is coming..Blood lust.. Ahhh, a death so sweet and delicious.

3.
VonErickson says, "Why not enjoy the comfort of the afterlife today? Through the miracle of modern carpentry you too can have your own little piece of heaven. This little gem has a velvet covered thick foam cushion and classic metal spring construction seat. It folds up to a fully shut position.Available in purple, red,or black fabric."

4.
PsandQs, This listing is for 6 skeletons (complete with place cards) which are a perfect addition to your Halloween themed dinner party or other Halloween gathering.

5.
TheMaterialGirl, Vintage orange chenille salvaged from a vintage bedspread is set off with two handpainted spiders. Black and white gingham accent and up-cycled white cotton envelope closure.Serged for durability this 14 by 14 inch pillow slip is machine washable. Pillow form not included.Arrives neatly bagged with tag and grosgrain ribbon.

spring town: a great place to live

2009-10-06T07:06:00.000-07:00

Springfield rates high in national rankings for 'quality of life' and 'best places for business and careers'

Category:
Two recent rankings place Springfield, Mo., in the top tier for “quality of life” and “best places for business and careers.”
Two recent rankings place Springfield, Mo., in the top tier for “quality of life” and “best places for business and careers.”
Bizjournals.com recently ranked Springfield among the top 50 mid-sized metros (#40) for “quality of life.”

This study looked at 124 mid-sized metros in 20 different categories. According to Bizjournals.com, the highest scores went to well-rounded places with healthy economies, light traffic, moderate costs of living, impressive housing stocks and strong educational systems. Springfield ranks higher than cities such as Little Rock, Ark., Tulsa, Okla., and Chattanooga, Tenn.

Forbes Magazine ranked Springfield in the top 20 percent of cities nationwide for “best places for business and careers.” Using consultants Moody’s Economy.com and Sperling’s Best Places, Forbes looks at three factors--the cost of doing business, job growth and educational attainment of residents of the 200 largest cities. According to Forbes, these are the cities, “remain attractive to businesses.” Springfield ranks above places such as Colombus, Ohio, Savannah, Georgia and Pittsburgh, Penn.

See Old Photos of Springfield, MO.

coach M is my favorite

2009-10-05T07:43:00.000-07:00

417 Magazine caught up with Coach Nyla Milleson, who happens to be the reason I was a gym rat all of my adolescence all the way into high school. She is and forever will be my Coach! She even took the time to come back to Glendale High School, where she once led the 1996 Lady Falcons to the #1 Finish at State. We took 3rd in State my sophomore year, as I played "swing" working 4 quarters as a Junior Varsity player and 1 quarter on Varsity under her. She is an amazing person, friend and Coach. It was so incredible seeing her at Glendale as she introduced me during the 2008-2009 Memories Assembly, where ex-Principal Gary Prouty, invited me to return to see the photo that they hung in their new atrium. Coach Milleson made the day that much more special. Can't wait to catch her in action as the Missouri State University Lady Bears' Head Coach! Go Bears! Here she is talking about her favorite things.

yearbook photo: circa 1958

2009-10-01T09:21:00.000-07:00

What an awesome and funny idea... upload a pic, pick a year and modify your image. Save, print, email... it's all deadly.

To see more hair-do's or don't--here. It's a hoot!

waiting for wild things

2009-09-29T07:07:00.000-07:00

I think I first saw the trailer for Spike Jonzes' new movie, Where the Wild Things Are on Ellen a few months back. This was one of my favorite books as a child and still holds a top slot for best illustrations in any book --ever. So while flipping through Entertainment Weekly this morning, I found a write-up about how awesome this movie is about to be! Max Records reports that a reported $80-100 million price tag awaits this October 16th adaptation of Wild Things. The classic kids' book will have a different version that the story but that gives all of us the power to be critics, and when all's said and done, isn't that what we all want when we go to the movies? Watch the trailer.

pretty paper

2009-09-28T13:42:00.001-07:00

Etsy is the perfect place to find all things handmade, organic and authentic directly from the source. Melker has an amazing assortment of origami lanterns that took my breath away and made me want to string some lights up around my backporch.

dismiss the fantasy

2009-09-27T10:31:00.000-07:00

after a morning of cozying up to my honey, sleeping in 'til 8:30am and taking CoCo out to potty (I am dog-sitting this weekend for a friend), I decided to take the reigns and tackle the closet-on-wheels in the backseat of my car today. The weather has fooled me into thinking it will be a brisk, fall-like day, but now that I have started the process, quickly realized that it's hot to death outside. the sun is beating down with no clouds in sight and I have had to come in to change my clothes... can't get wife-beater tan lines today. Not a good look. So, today is my weekend and it blows that it will be spent burning to death as I carry loads from my car to the house for phase 1 of the "let's get it together" show.

it's not intentional that everything I own happens to be in my car riding around with me... it's like abuse... it's a slow progression that creeps up on you until one day you can't take it anymore. Discussing this with other women makes me feel a bit better about myself-- I have discovered that I'm not the only one with this problem.

I am about 30 minutes away from having to end my work and take a drive over to Ed Biamonte's studio for a Lancome photo shoot with a group of girls from various ethnic backgrounds... yes, I am playing the part of the token black once again. That's my job, and I will wear it out! Funny how mulattos get taken for black in Springfield even though I am just as much white as I am black-- all they see around these parts is nappy roots and a slight shade darker so I must be "Negro". Yes, a lady actually called me that the other day, thought I'd share.

Enough is enough, the car is now emptied so I will leave the disaster in my living room for another day. Ah, I love Sundays.

Miss Merrie Christmas, No More?

2009-09-24T06:54:00.000-07:00

KOLR 10 interviewed me yesterday about the potential end of the Miss Merrie Christmas Pageant, which has a 50+ year history in Springfield. I won Miss Merrie Christmas my junior year at Glendale High School and resided over the Christmas Parade, was interviewed on KOLR10 and began public speaking from my experience as Springfield's Miss Merrie Christmas. I'm sad to see that junior and senior girls won't get the chance to enter and participate in the holiday pageant.

Watch the full interview, thanks to Emily at KOLR10 for tracking me down. I hope a sponsor can afford $8k for this tradition to continue and give girls scholarship money, an experience unlike any other and the chance to represent Springfield once again.

Here is the full interview:
(Springfield, MO) -- The lights may dim early at the Miss Merrie Christmas pageant. It's been a Springfield tradition for more than 50 years. But this year's pageant could be canceled.It's an event known for kicking off the holiday season and for sharing the gift of education with winners through scholarship money. Turns out, money is what's keeping organizers from planning the event, unless a corporate sponsor steps forward.An athlete at heart, Marissa Whitley decided to throw her crown in the ring in after a fellow Glendale student won the Miss Merrie Christmas pageant."She was on my track team and was a girl's girl, but not the pageant type. I thought, 'Well if she can do it, I can do it,'" remembers Whitley.Just weeks later, Whitley was crowned 1999's Miss Merrie Christmas."I didn't expect to win, but for me it opened up all of the other doors," says Whitley.From the door to a car parading her through Springfield to a door leading to a national stage, when she won Miss Teen USA. So news that the keys to those doors, the pageant, may be canceled, saddens Whitley.The Urban Districts Alliance hosts the annual event, but the money that makes it happen hasn't come in this year because of the economy."It takes $7,000 to $8,000 to run the event," says Rusty Worley, Executive Director of Urban Districts Alliance. "The main thing that this event lacks, right now, is a champion."A sponsor to pick judges and help recruit young women."We could help them with that process. It's just finding someone," says Worley.High school juniors and seniors compete for the title to win college scholarship money."This would be a scholarship opportunity lost," says Worley.Whitley used that opportunity to propel herself into the marketing world. She's now joining the search for a sponsor to pay for the pageant."I think we can raise that. My efforts will be to have the tradition carry on," says Whitley.Worley says there's not a deadline to find a sponsor, but the sooner an organization comes forward, the better.So what about all the other holiday festivals? Worley says all of those Springfield holiday traditions, like Festival of Lights and First Night, are good to go this year.

My New Commercial

2009-09-23T06:40:00.000-07:00

Who said you can't have fun at work?!

cosmic translation

2009-09-18T16:50:00.000-07:00

the world is an amusing place. amusing like "ha-ha" yes but more often than not amusing like "this must be a sign". every once in awhile you are certain that your life is moving in the right direction, allowing you to almost seemlessly create the existence you want and need to be happy and successful. other times, the world seems to be spinning on a varying axis where nothing goes your way and all is wrong. i think in this life, in our world we live in, we have decisions that will manifest into positive and benefitial experiences versus the negative option that is an easier path to naturally take. it's hard to be happy, upbeat, optimistic and live in a healthy frame of mind day to day. it's human nature to want to take the path of least resistence, in this case, being a bitter scenical b* with nothing better to do than complain about all that's bad.

listening to the keynote speaker at the American Heart Association's Go Red For Women Luncheon yesterday, the odds were clear. the better your thoughts, the better your health. they go hand in hand and those are the honest facts of life. this made me think about my life and how i choose to live it. most days, i wake up eager and ready to take the tiger by the tail... the snooze button is for the birds, ready for the chance to live that day out and make the most of it. but what about those off days? am i supposed to be happy-go-lucky every single day of my life? your life? how do you live? it amazed me that your health is directly linked to your thoughts, attitude and choices that you make each day of your life.

yesterday was a sign for me to continue thinking healthy, happy and motivating thoughts because the proof is in the studies... your thoughts manifest into your health. and for those times when illness or tragedy strikes, it's just as much your thoughts and support system that gets you through and not just your medicinal support that contributes to your recovery or demise.

for more information on heart disease click here.

never forgotten

2009-09-11T08:59:00.000-07:00

This day 8 years ago began as just another day. Aside from having been named Miss Teen USA 2001, moving from Missouri to New York City to live in a riverside apartment with Miss Universe and Miss USA as my new roommates and being granted access into events and premieres with red carpets and celebs, the eleventh day of September in 2001 started the same as the fourteen days prior. No wait, it didn't. The Westside Highway leading cars to the tip of Manhattan was noisier than the previous days. My alarm sounded and my room was quickly filled with sirens from below. I found myself peering down from my glassy fish bowl on the 31st floor of Trump Place to see a staggering number of ambulances and cop cars cramming the highway that ran next to the Hudson River.

From there, the day quickly became a nightmare for everyone watching on the news as the burning buildings, one then the other, were hit by planes. It felt like my heart sank to a depth in my body that had never been touched before as I figured out that from my bedroom window facing the Jersey shore, I could see Tower 1 burning.

Confusion set in, phone lines were jammed and for once, the millions living and working in Manhattan felt alone. Singled out in some strange way. Ominious yet present, the morning of the 11th became engraved in our minds as the worst day since Pearl Harbor to most Americans. From the bad came overwhelming, choke you up goodness from every day people in this country. The news made all of us unite as if this attack had happened in everyone's neighborhood. It did. For once, I felt that we all wanted the best for every single person in this country.

With my title, I did something too. I had to. There was no other way to get through the undeniable feeling of loss. I served food down at Ground Zero at an Italian Restaurant, Nino's, that closed their doors to the public and became the food place for the iron and rescue workers who needed a meal. I'll never forget those days of listening to their stories, witnessing their autographed helmets from Hilary Clinton, Snoop Dogg and other random people who took the time to visit them as well. They cried with each other, laughed at others' tales of heroism and became a unit of heroes that I had the priviledge of meeting.

All of us changed on this day, eight short years ago. One event in human history altered all of us forever. For those we lost and for all of the good that took place despite such tragic causes, you remain in my prayers. Although the cause was nothing shy of heartbreaking loss and senseless horror, the effect was as great as that. It was both seen and felt. No words can fully express how it made any of us feel. New Yorkers united, Americans united and I was that much prouder to have been selected to represent the youth of America in such a monumental yet devastating time.

really. sexy. skin.

2009-09-10T08:49:00.000-07:00

My new job has given me a newfound appreciation and respect for skin. Not my skin. Skin in its entirety with no prejudice for placement, shade or current status. Knowing the dime-sized amount of skincare since beginning three weeks ago at DermaHealth Skin & Laser Care Clinic, I have valued my own skin in a new way.

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Their "Lytic" products are blended with botanical extracts, a wonderfully potent yet soothing blend of date-apple-onion enzymes and lavendar to act as a natural anti-inflammatory agent. This product is light without causing more breakouts or skin freakouts while diving into your dermis for 5-7 minutes both morning and night. This waiting period is well worth the radiant glow this go-to tube generates for your skin!

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gigs.galore

2009-09-09T11:30:00.000-07:00

Today is the next day before the first day of the rest of your life! Funny, but yes, I am excited about all of the many hats I have worn while on task at the many jobs I have had in my life thus far. It wasn't until moving back to Missouri and talking to an old neighbor of mine (who used to babysit me!) about the many jobs I've had that I decided maybe I should write about them. Each gave me considerably different highlights,responsibilities and experiences that have made me who I am today.

Here they are in chronological order:

Miss Missouri Teen USA 2001- attending 1/2 day of school my senior year so I could travel and speak to 50,000+ people as the state representative. Also: like Sandra Bullock, I won Miss Congeniality! Who knew I was so Congenial?!
Miss Teen USA 2001- After graduating high school in May of 2001, I worked my butt off (literally, and figuratively) to compete at the national competition in South Padre Island, TX. I WON and moved to New York City on August 30, 2001, where I worked for Donald Trump and the Miss Universe Organization for 365 days.

Attended University of Missouri-Columbia for 1 full year, 1/2 as Miss Teen USA and traveled every weekend, the other 1/2 as a "normal" student until my talent agent called for a VJ position with MTV in December. January, I moved back to New York City from Columbia, MO for a VJ spot with MTV.
VJ, MTV Networks- traveled to college campuses and interviewed students and faculty on special interest topics. DUKE and FSU were the coolest. Even ran into an old friend ( Natalie) on the campus of FSU.
Host, Tavern on the Green in Central Park- learned ho to seat the largest restaurant in the US.... had fun with private events, yes even Nick and Jessica from Newlyweds came to eat, Mariah Carey and other celebs.
Server, Arthur's Landing- with a view of New York City's skyline, I lived in New Jersey and worked on the Jersey shore. Kelly was my roommate and IKEA was our hangout along with live music. I miss my friend and that view!
Chicago!!!! I moved to Chicago after wanting to be closer to home. Gurnee, IL was the place.
Chicago Cornea Consultants was the job! Scrubs, checking patients getting lasik in was the job.
EXPRESS- this was my 2nd job... love their clothes and met my girl, Nicole there.
Got dumped, moved to downtown Chicago... started yet another gig the following week...

Project Manager, The Support Group, a 501 c3 non-profit organization that I really enjoyed! Chicago Public Schools, Chicago Housing Authority, and NBA athletes worked towards getting basketaball programs into after-school programs.
Marketing Assistant, The State of Illinois - worked with 13 graphic designers to create all of the state initiatives signage, Governor events, and worked on committees to plan and execute programs and special events.
Model, Stewart Talent- Auditioned daily for a variety of jobs and even booked a few.
LA BOUND!!! Cross country in two days, I became a struggling actor for 2 years living and working in Hollywood.
Temp Agency-- my first placement was in the FLYNT Publication Building working for an entertainment lawyer.
Cypress Land Company was the next and I stayed working there for 8 months. Full time is hard to fulfill when you are working towards auditioning but they were awesome, flexible and a great place to work!
Hostess, KATSUYA Hollywood.... sushi and amazing cuisine, hot celebs and papparazzi made this job fun, and challenging. Being part of the SBE family was cool, though. Lots of parties, events and clubs to go to. Ah, LA life.
Moved back to Missouri!!! Yes, another move, but for all the right reasons! I am a totally different person that I was when I made the move to NY in 2001. The people, places and day-to-day events made me a better human being. I wouldn't trade my life experience or unique journey for the world!

Whew! Tons of jobs, all were great in their own way... thanks to the many employers who have dealt with me over the years and kept me housed, clothed and fed! It stills amazed me how one job, one person or place can present so many awesome connections, opportunities and adventures if you are open to them and ready to take them on. All of these were created by Him, I simply took his lead and followed in pursuit of happiness and a new chance to prove myself in different ways. I've had more jobs than hairstyles, and well, that's a GANG!!!

falling over these...

2009-09-08T14:52:00.000-07:00

Some great fall finds at anthropology.com Enjoy!!

dallas market

2009-08-26T16:39:00.000-07:00

Here are some shots of the fun time I joined through serenidipitous circumstances while at the Dallas Apparel Market. From chatting with the girls on our down-time to making new friends and business contacts, Dallas was a tremendous blessing and joyful experience. I visited family that I hadn't seen in quiet a while and took the long 7- hour drive as some "alone time" that was therapeutic and a nice way to unwind and relax before starting a new job. I was Cinderella for three days! Thanks Bari Jay!

beware of low lighting

2009-08-20T14:35:00.000-07:00

first, let me preface this blog with: everyone knows what it's like to have met someone in poor lighting. it's NOT pretty! from a more practical place, i wrote this blog after finding lamps that i had been searching for and wanted to share my experience. from what i know, everyone needs a range of lighting that encompasses ambient, work-related and of course a variety of lamps to make any room in your house livable while creating a certain look. when i first moved to LA, i found my way into lamps plus who had "going out of business" signs on their windows (not knowing this was their business strategy) but found a Tiffany-esk lamp that weighs a good 15 pounds but was exactly what i wanted for my non-existent apartment. *it was all in my mind though so that's all that mattered!

from a decorative and organizational stand-point, my biggest key to finding the perfect arrangement of lamps and light fixtures for your place of interest are:

mix old with new
don't be hell-bent on matchy-matchy setups
quality costs
vintage makes anything exceptional
functionality must meet accessibility
have some fun!
try something new
re-arrange every six months
sell the old and invest in the new
be OPEN to change

your home is where you need to feel like YOU... and being able to see what the heck your doing is a plus, too! happy light-looking.

caffeine induced thrift store frenzy

2009-08-19T00:05:00.000-07:00

"Thrifting" is a fun yet dangerous way to spend a rainy afternoon so as soon as the clouds began rolling in yesterday on the way to pig out at The Cracker Barrel, I knew that treats and even some trickery was in the works! The DAV on North Glenstone offered up two slices of interior decorator pie with not one but TWO lighting pieces for $2.98 and a dumpster diver special (not quiet, but it was on it's way to the trash) so I rescued it for $1.98... a somewhat brassy chandelier eyesore that after a bit of TLC and paint will do the kitchen wonders.

The best part of what has been called my caffeine-induced thrift store frenzy is that no matter how much $ you have, or where you go, there is always a good time to be had by all. From the high-waisted mommy jeans to the classic T's hidden in the isles, everyone leaves with a great experience under their belt.

*Sidenote: I am watching as a little finch and Cardinal mama take turns peepin' out my hanging fern on my front porch... possibly for a new home for the fall.

So on this second rainy somewhat dreary morning, I will work on updating this hanging fixture and bringing it from brass to beautiful! Along with that task is a handful of other things around the house that have been waiting for me. But, I'm still hyped up on coffee from C. Barrel so it's all good.

haus of stile

2009-08-18T08:32:00.000-07:00

While in Dallas for the Apparel Market last week, I serendipitously began working with the best group of girls. Directly across the hall was Tony Bowls showroom and if you don't know this man, you are either A. living under the rock of non-pageantry living or B. simply not too up on the latest and greatest evening gown designers. Either way, Tony Bowls is a KING to the pageant goers and pageant people alike.

Showroom 14820 was where I began working and was also where the plethra of ladies pleasure of meeting Australian designer, Dana Mathers, a super sweet woman by the name of Heather who will be a friend for life and a vivacious chatty Cathy by the name of Casey. Casey's blog Stile Haus is a wonderful site with even better images and fashion insight. All Tied Up is below for your viewing enjoyment! This is to all of the ladies in Dallas for making my trip one for the books!

*All Photos Courtesy of StileHaus.com

peach pies for sunny skies

2009-08-07T13:33:00.000-07:00

the latest news is big! I just got a new job and learned how to bake my own peach pie from scratch! blessings come in al shapes and sizes and yesterday was a very special day. Today is my girl Queen's birthday (17) and after a painting project in the backyard, I've settled into a nice cup of tea, Denzel flick and a fun night out on the town in a bit.

Enjoy your weekend!

living.room.revamp

2009-08-02T13:30:00.000-07:00

phase 2 has happened at the crib (house for the un-ghetto folks who happen to be reading this!).

things are getting into their designated places, lamps added, columns placed discretely in corners (things I learned reading a feng shui book) and noticed that in fact, I like the living room much better since the re-arrangement.

all of this in preparation for my cousin to move in, should be a good time until my lease is up in April. and just like with moving, you never quiet remember how much crap you have until you have to find homes for it all.

enjoy the new space below.

for my baby....

2009-07-31T01:30:00.000-07:00

wish we were catchin' a big one like this...

g3: good girl gallery

2009-07-30T09:39:00.000-07:00

Since moving back to Springfield, few things have caught my attention in the way of positive or noticeable changes for the better. i walked into one yesterday and have to share my find! the rain is coming down this morning and it's made me want to get all arts 'n crafts in my alone time plus the inspiration of my time in the Good Girl Art Gallery.

Ornate lamps, wall decor, mod art and fixtures hang in this beautifully crafted and designed space on historic Walnut Street in downtown Springfield. With cool colors, understated sophistication and an even sweeter taste for uniquely interesting home accents, vintage fashions and creatively crafted pieces from local artists, this place reminds me of a boutique/gallery you'd find while walking in Venice Beach or Santa Monica.

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Their website states:

Good Girl Art Gallery came to life as the result of the yearnings of two artists for a place where contemporary, compelling non-mainstream artwork could be shown.
Good Girl Art now represents over 40 artists, local and those non-local usually have a connection to Springfield. Artist made items include such mediums painting, photography, sculpture, jewelry, pottery, furniture, card art and vintage hand made clothing and handbags. There is an interesting mix of boutique items ranging from limited edition out of print books (a signed Andy Warhol!) to unexpected action figures (Jane Austen, her quill pen in hand) to Kosher, Matzo Ball soap. In other words, art is innate at Good Girl Art in that the idea of the items available is art unto itself.

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Some cute things... enjoy their inspiring display of talent that came from 417-land. Good Girl's isn't necessarily mandatory for purchasing their items, however so come one, come all.

a room with a view

2009-07-22T20:35:00.000-07:00

Here is a quick before and after from a home office turned relaxation room. Now, thanks to a bit of TLC today, this space has been transformed into a place of clutter-free, airiness with more natural light and a cleaner less hectic work desk on the opposite wall. I love working my magic and making someone's home what they need it to be. Aw, now he can breathe again!

Start to finish wasn't that difficult a process since he was already working on making 3 separate piles for his stuff. DONATE, SELL, KEEP should be marked and placed in three areas easily accessible yet apart from one another. During the sorting process, make sure to ask yourself, "Have I seen, touched, used or worn this items in the past six months?" If the answer is no, discard or donate without hesitation.

For this client, he was ready to purge, making my job that much easier! Holding onto items is 10% physical, 90% mental/emotional with a connection that may need severed for your health and the health of your space.

De-cluttering, as this client was well aware, is a safer, cleaner more profitable and stress-free area once the mess is sorted and dealt with accordingly. The aftermath is rewarding, positive and upbeat allowing your true self to flourish at home and become more productive in your space altogether.

*I brought in live plants from his kitchen to add greenery and scenery to this front room. The second thing done was pull up the shades that were drawn giving light and in turn better natural attributes to the space. Dusting all furniture, vacuuming the floors, sweeping the cobwebs from the corners and the baseboards, fluffing the cushions and adding candles and books to the middle table all gave a much needed facelift to the room. Framed artwork or other meaningful imagery adds so much to the walls themselves and brings a warm and cozier feeling to the area without making a more drastic change like wall color or drapes.

* I pulled this glass case into this room to add history and a nice visual addition to this wall. Notice also, this wall had nothing on it aside from the boxes that we ended up using so this mirror was brought in, cleaned and put up to instantly make this room appear larger. The paint almost seems fresher now that these two pieces were added.

meet me in st.louis

2009-07-21T09:13:00.000-07:00

Friday I am making my first trip to St. Louis in awhile. I love the city life and St. Louis is the closest place to me that feels like a big city. I've planned some meetings and am getting excited for the retreat into the hustlin' 'n bustlin' city!

If you've never been to The Gateway City, St. Louis has tons to offer a tourist of any and all kinds.

My time spent in the Lou has been awesome, from shooting photos on the rooftop of the talent agency that I am meeting with again to sitting on the back of a convertible during their Thanksgiving Day Parade that wound through the downtown buildings in the brisk air.

Clubs on Washington are the place to be at night and the free tourist attractions and sporting events make for a fun-filled weekend if nothing else! The sprawling suburbs increase the travel time just like anywhere but the inner city campuses of WashU and SLU make college life an experience. I remember visiting SLU for their SLU 101 festivities and simply walking around downtown was an eye-opening experience for me fresh from Springfield.

Needless to say, my visits to St. Louis have always been memorable and full of good times. Everyone should go at least once...

happy birthday, besty!

2009-07-11T08:38:00.000-07:00

At my Apartment in Columbia.

My girl, Morgan, has been in my world since 1997 when our middle school's joined up at good ole GHS. Pershing was an awesome time for me as music, sports and friends culminated into a great 3 years as a Lady General. "We Held The Rope" as A-Team basketball captured the City Championships only after beating the rival Carter Cougars who then fed into Kickapoo. I didn't know Morgan at this time, for she was a Hickory Hills _____ (hmmm, not sure what she was!)

I do remember seeing her on the other side of the volleyball net at Hickory Hills one game though, never would I imagine how special or long our friendship would last. Glendale brought us together as teammates playing freshman basketball together, taking some of the same classes and of course, spending weekends enjoying our free time and newfound friendship. Today, we are celebrating her 27th birthday and so much has changed both good and bad like life tends to do. Now we are 26, almost 27 and are still best friends. Our humor, interests and lives have mimicked each other even through the distance of her college years at MU and my travels abroad.

So many good memories of going out in Columbia, MO after I enrolled in 2003, sharing laughs of ole times with her family, the endless slew of gyms we walked into and walked out of victorious... there are so many good ones. The others are more serious, losing loved ones and seeing those closest to her battle obstacles greater than anyone could imagine. The best family in the world with the heart of gold. I couldn't ask for a better besty and today is her day. This is for Morgan... my true best friend who has been there whenever I needed her. Here are some of my best moments captured with my BFF.

New Year's Eve Visit In Chicago!

Happy Birthday, Morgana!!! I love you and you will always be in my life.

sprucin' up the pad

2009-07-03T07:31:00.000-07:00

so many ideas... so little time! here are a few from around my house.

hand-painted piece accents this small space.

door knockers

glass hangin vases line the wall behind the tv...small yet satisfying.

photo wall with assorted frames and art.

porch swings, bare feet and cookouts

2009-07-02T12:57:00.000-07:00

Summer is officially here and I had to share some moments in my life that I stopped to say, "What a great life!" We need to take notice of these times more often and be thankful for the air in our lungs, the sparkle in our eye and the many blessings all of us have in our daily lives.

1. Taking pictures of my nieces playing dress up like I used to do when I was their age. Such beautiful young ladies with such bright futures... I'm so proud to be an AUNT!

2. Getting served a wonderful dinner on the new grill in my backyard from the love of my life. It was so good on so many different levels!

3. Being open to new opportunities. Since moving back to Missouri, the life I lived up til now has prepared me for great things to come. I'm excited to see what pans out.

4. Sitting on my front porch swing a little after sunset. A time of reflection, hope and relaxation is found at dusk for me and I absolutely LOVE the swing itself.

5. Wondering around the house, watering flowers, planting seeds in freshly painted pots and going out to talk to my next door neighbor barefoot. Since I was a little girl shoes were the sworn enemy and it still holds true for me today.

Life is so good, no matter what is happening in the moments that make up a day, as a whole, we are so fortunate to have our health, friends and family. Smile for each of the special things in your life and I bet you'll smile the majority of the day. And who knows who will see your smile and have it be EXACTLY what they need. God is good. Remember, we are works in progress and it's the journey, not the destination.

angels forever heard

2009-07-01T16:34:00.001-07:00

A wonderful find while walking the Annual Artsfest, and yes, I'm finally writing about it, was Rick and Tina of silent-echoes. They travel to New Orleans and take breathtaking images of angels from various locations including in the historic and traditionally GORGEOUS cemeteries. Visit them at www.silent-echoes.com to see more of their work.

the beast is ugly

2009-06-27T16:17:00.000-07:00

why does it have to happen that way? someone dies unexpectedly. that's not bad enough... they have to run it and beat ya over the head with it too.why can't they just simply pass on in peace. instead, the beast rears its ugly head and makes a mockery out of the life that has just ended five seconds earlier.

now they are deemed incredible. talented even. maybe the best thing that ever existed in this horrid rat-race of a world. why isn't there life treasured from the beginning? followed, scrutinized and criticized til you can't anymore. that's what they do instead. uuuunnntttiiillll- boom, they are dead. now the tables are turned and their life is now some sort of triumphant miracle of good deeds, lovely photos of seemingly better days and of course, the terms of false endearment follow.

what did you call them when they were alive? did you ever give them any support or kudos last week? nope... simply now that they aren't here to hear your reverse opinions of them. maybe it was that shameful display of "journalism" that made them the way they were to begin with.

i hate this beast... it's definately a love/hate relationship. all entertainers need it to make them a household name, very few are good enough to have them follow their every move from childhood. he was. he is the best and will be the best until the end of time. i just hate that they use people and then discard them when they've had their fun.

it's a real shame.

r.i.p. michael jackson and farrah fawcett

journey 9,000 feet up

2009-06-12T08:48:00.001-07:00

An unexpected gift just happened. Minus slight elevation sickness and an overly dry nose, the chance to drive cross country with my older sister and Uncle Gene was more than worth it. From the rolling hills and cascading Yucca plants in bloom alongside the highway to take us to Colorado, the time spent listening to stories from the past made the 2-day journey full of laughs and nostalgia.

Here are some highlights from the Colorado trip starting with our drive-through the Garden of the Gods.

It was so wonderful to share the road and week-long venture with such amazing and supportive people. I was able to see such beauty in the great outdoors and in the people that I was around... I am so glad I was able to experience such a blessed trip and help out the people I love most in this world! Very few times are we able to fully spend time in a desolate and media-free lodge 9,000 feet up, 10 miles away from your mailbox let alone neighbors, stores and other pollutants in the world.

I felt at peace not having to worry about work, catching my favorites TV shows (there was no TV) and the other unnecessary things that make up our lives. In the end, I felt a sense of direction and clarity that only time away from the rat race can produce. Now it's back to reality and civilization but I will never forget the dynamic woman whose home we helped pack up or the generous nature of the people who took me along for the ride.

karaoke+turtles=summer fun

2009-06-01T15:20:00.000-07:00

this past weekend was the beginning of a week-long journey for my oldest sister and i. yes, as we speak, we are in hays, kansas, making our way into the depths of colorado for what may be the coolest journey to retrieve items of a dear friend who has passed away. that's another blog all together, but since she arrived in Branson... at the new airport that has no signs from the highway oddly enough, we have had a ball.

after a quick bite at Bar Louie at the Branson Landing (awesome crab cake sliders) we met our other sister at the springfield brewing company on the patio for a wonderfully balmy evening of live jazz and brews. then, after too many on someone's part, they decided to make a pit stop at the Tipsy Turtle for a little karaoke to end the night. Neither Roberta Flack nor Lauryn Hill was ready for the rest!

i love having my sisters in my life and we had a great time on Saturday night. summer is here and my sisters bring me so much joy when i get the chance to be around them. they are such blessings in my life.

happy first day of june...hopefully your weekend was full of fun too!

a shower for baby

2009-05-27T15:29:00.000-07:00

What a wonderful time for her. Her new bundle of tenderness is almost here, just counting down the days until she meets her special addition. It was so lovely to witness such love between two people at her shower. The rainy afternoon was perfect for her celebration and her cupcakes were chocolatey delights! I'm so happy for her! I had the best time meeting her friends, taking pictures of the food and festivities.

pam grier, I thank you

2009-05-26T16:03:00.001-07:00

happy birthday to the woman whose name I hear all the time now that my hair is natural. i heard that today was your 60th b-day... congrats on being the sexiest woman i can be compared to!

organized: my office before & after

2009-05-23T11:00:00.000-07:00

*BEFORE*

*AFTER*

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Ok, I promised the progress in pictures of my home office after I added the black five-shelf yard ornament that I decided to put in my office to hold all of my stuff.

I left behind a handmade wood bookshelf in LA so this was a perfect go-to for the organizational aspect in my office.

What all is on the shelves, you may ask?

Here are the holdings of this metal shelving unit:

acrylic paint briefcase
miss teen usa crown case (the larger of the two silver metal cases)
IKEA holders in various colors and textures that hold:

magazines
photos
disks, cd's, dvd cases
paint and brushes
ribbon

glass jars that are great for multiple uses and holdings
basket full of tools, hammer, misc household items
personal touches like framed photos, trinkets with meaning and bulletin board

Anyone can bring a personal touch to your organizational wall units with live plants, splashes of color and pictures of good times. Summer is officially upon us with the long 3-day weekend so why not bring a new sizzlin' summer look to your home or office? Let me know if you need some help and have a SAFE and SUN-Filled Memorial Day Weekend.

sorry little birdy

2009-05-22T20:55:00.000-07:00

i hit a robin this morning. i feel terrible. this was my first bird casualty. i was sad at the thought of hitting the bird and continuing to go about my business but then I just thought, "I hope the little birdy didn't suffer."

this is for you little robby. hopefully my honda didn't hurt you.

lupe fiasco is my friend

2009-05-19T06:49:00.001-07:00

Lupe Fiasco is a great artist. A true artist, I should say. Unlike the mass of junk of the airwaves, Lupe brings a fresh sound, perspective and look (diggin' the glasses) to the hip-hop scene. I found him jammin' to Pharrell at the N.E.R.D. private concert at The Roosevelt Hotel in Hollywood some time back. I found the pic and wanted to post it. Enjoy!

grad day

2009-05-18T12:49:00.000-07:00

While filing greeting cards and looking for inspiration for my own creations I ran across this card for graduates and thought I'd share.

MAY YOU ALWAY HAVE...
enough success to make you proud,
enough trials to keep you strong,
enough luck to make you smile at life,
enough work to keep you challenged,
enough of all life's treasures to keep you truly happy.

CONGRATULATIONS

Thought this summed up the day for millions perfectly!

a whitley one handmade cards

2009-05-15T09:18:00.000-07:00

here is a sneak peak at my handmade greeting cards! they are on sale now on etsy.com! (simply click on the image of my cards to the right!) or, if you feel, send me a comment and I will hit you back! they are great for every person and occasion in your life, and most importantly, they are one-of-a-kind!!!

feel free to leave a comment or email me to get a customized card made for the special person in your life.

thank you, mom

2009-05-10T02:09:00.000-07:00

every day is mother's day. for without that woman, where would we be? i know that today should not be the only day we give thanks to those special women in our world's who gave us life, lessons and laughter. some believe that children choose their parents thus making their journeys through life whether good or bad a journey they needed to go on and searched out. my life has made this believable to me as i feel that nothing that has occurred in my life has been too great or devastating to deal with as hard as times were. the death of my mother in 1986 makes mother's day a somewhat difficult day for me. not because she isn't here, but because on this day, i reflect a bit more and oftentimes a bit deeper into myself, her life and journey up until her death. i unrolled a copied sheet of photos today and discovered this photo of my mother, Carolyn, i'm guessing in her early years (maybe 5 or so) and was taken by her maturity and beauty even at such an early age.

i am blessed to have at least 5 women in my life that i would consider to be my "Mother". that feminine figure that helps lead, support and nurture the child in me. this day is for all of them. the memories shared with each of them make me feel a deep desire to share how they have each helped enrich my life's journey. today i thank each of you for making me the woman i am today.

My life is a testament to those women in my life. Like the African proverb said, "It takes a village to raise a child." I am an example of this quote and thank all of my surrogate mother's who continue to believe in me even when i may not believe in me. thank you for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers and most of all, for loving me.

henri matisse

2009-05-05T20:00:00.000-07:00

this is one of my favorite pieces by Henri Matisse. the print is framed in my room and reminds me of Pasadena, CA where I bought the print. the colors are so vibrant and the open window, plants on the deck and the water with boats all give me a light and airy feeling. awwww!!!! happy tuesday... it was a long one here, I don't know about you!

heavenly scents, indeed

2009-05-04T23:50:00.000-07:00

What's with women and candles? Men may like the occasional scent of a burning candle but not many men know how to create a wonderful made and scented candle. Well, I found the nicest most generous man who happens to be a candlemaker! It's a win-win all the way around!! A wonderfully genuine man who makes his own candle that you can smell outside without any of them being lit!

Weekends were my time of sun and sight-seeing on Venice Beach. Yes, I can't get enough of the vendors, artists, homeless and tourists all strolling around together along the oceanfront on this wildly entertaining boardwalk.

It was then that I had the pleasure of meeting a man by the name of Paul Smith. Simple name, and even simpler were the astonishing candles that he makes. From Torrance, CA, Paul mixes his own scents and packages a beautifully aromatic candle that burns forever.

Email Paul at info@heavenlyscentscandles.net for details on his scents, sizes and prices. They make amazing gifts for the candle lover in your world!

My favorite is his Peony Plum & Cucumber candle. Shipping is easy and you'll find that you receive more than just a great candle. A superb candles add so much to your space without even being lit and are reasonable, delectable and oh so heavenly!

happenings

2009-05-03T10:34:00.000-07:00

*picture taken in Las Vegas, walking the strip*

last week was super busy with lots of things in the works. here are some items worth mentioning.

Visiting my alma mater and finally meeting with Glendale High School Principal, Gary Prouty, who has decided to put a picture of me in the newly remodeled entrance of GHS! I feel really honored that he wants to do this before he retires. The surprise visit with Coach Temple was such a special treat for me... Go RED!
Celebrating with my big sis who not only is making straight A's in tough anatomy courses, but she was ASKED to be a part of the nursing program. Way to go, A!!!
Enjoying the company of 10 wonderful women Friday night filled with lots of laughs! My first dinner party of the spring.
A quick and meaningful breakfast with my Aunt Julie at Panera Bread. I miss her so the visit was a highlight of my week.
Watching as the rain fell all week, showering us with humidity and giving my new patunia's a nice watering after I planted them in my new trees that I've placed at the foot of my front steps. I have really taken a liking *wow* to gardening and find that coming home has a bit more meaning once you have plants that depend on your attention.
The beautiful girls that have become the greatest joys in my life again. Being able to pick them up from school and spend the afternoon with them is truly the best part of my day that I look forward to. They are the greatest people and I learn so much when I am with them.
Being spiritually revived thanks to Miss Kathy, Veronica and Mama Beth. I am actively seeking a church home here and their prayer keeps me sane.
Running into old teachers and friends on Easter Sunday. God continues to place me in amazing places with amazing people. He is so good and protects me for reasons only He knows.
Meeting with Lost & Found.
Lunch with old friend, Ron Davis.
Springfield Confidential... it's in the beginning stages.
Attending the Annual Artsfest on Historic Walnut Street. Yes, the rain held off just enough for a nice stroll down the tent-filled street. A blog will follow highlighting some artist's that I loved!! No camera, rain was in the forecast.
The surprise Stewart Talent envelope. Thanks to Bally's, I can breathe a bit easier for awhile!

life is always good, sometimes it throws us a bit more than we like or feel capable of handling but in all, every day brings joy, happiness and positivity. ask and you shall receive is always what runs through my mind when those surprise happenings come about. take it all in stride, live in the moment and know that nothing is forever. more to come from soggy Springfield. happy sunday.

creative inspiration:kelly rae

2009-04-29T09:38:00.000-07:00

i am inspired, amazed and touched by the creative prowess and fragility of Kelly Rae. this image below as seen in her "tidbits" blog really struck me and I absolutely had to share it with you.

i find myself staring at it wishing the girl on this canvas was me....leaving me with the possibility of flying away at a moment's notice. i love the cutouts stating "many blessings, so much love" on the front of her beautiful blue-green dress as she daydreams of conquering the world. maybe that's my interpretation but Kelly inspires me to create, love and be the outgoing joyous woman i strive to be. the #11 is also present, which is the date of my birthday and I feel a connection with her for the longing in her eyes, the position of her head, the sadness in her body. i'm going to pick up her book Taking Flight and you should do the same.

workin' it

2009-04-28T17:59:00.000-07:00

great news! Bally Total Fitness has renewed my contract to run the commercials and print in all of their gyms nationwide until 2010... and you thought you could get rid of me! the shoot was done in Chicago and was a blast, working out for both video and photography. If you're ever in Bally's you may just see me sweating right along with ya. wish they woulda given me a gym membership but I'll take what they give me! just wanted to share the good news!!

50 things i love

2009-04-27T19:00:00.000-07:00

1. cute magnets

2. lazy afternoons

3. black and white photography

4. vintage dresses

5. bead board

6. organic oatmeal made by AJ with his signature twist

7. movie nights

8. being helpful and feeling needed

9. riding bikes then shooting baskets in the park

10. lamp shades

11. astrological pictures

12. the smell of fresh cut grass

13. long hot showers

14. sleeping in

15. homemade fudge

16. the sound of birds in the morning

17. fresh flowers in a crystal vase

18. handblown glass

19. photo albums

20. candles that smell edible

21. all day breakfast spots

22. family-owned stores

23. paisley

24. italian architecture

25. bead boards in a kitchen or bathroom

26. claw-footed bathtubs

27. accents

28. the smell of used books

29. vaulted ceilings

30. turquoise

31. dried flowers

32. flea markets

33. the &

34. scrapbook stickers, pages and random tidbits

35. picture frames

36. copper rainchains

37. old doorknobs on even older doors

38. seeing old friends in unexpected places

39. hearing "you're hired!"

40. the smell after a heavy rainshower

41. the sound of my nieces laughing

42. reading old writings in the back of my high school yearbook

43. spending a day roaming, photographing the world around me

44. long days at the river, beach or lake

45. writing my TO DO lists with a fresh roller ink pen

46. celebrating good news over Italian

47. reading a wonderful book and sipping hot chocolate

48. face-to-face conversation

49. seeing a fresh coat of paint for the first time

50. laughing with the one I love as he pulls my nubbins!

my spring handbag

2009-04-26T15:15:00.000-07:00

"MAN! I feel like a woman!!!" (That Shania song!)

all because of a new handbag. strange what meaningless things can do to uplift, upgrade and upstage us! Not saying that I got a new purse to upstage, but doesn't getting something that you REALLY want have that effect?! I have been working around this buttery cream handbag for over six months and I was finally able to bring myself to the realization that 1. I loved everything about the bag (shape, color, texture, interior, zippers, hardware (silver) and size when you open it) and 2. that I honestly needed something that wasn't referred to as "the black hole" by my boyfriend every time I went to look for my phone, keys, debit card or 99 other options that I carry around. And my #3 reason for getting a new purse was that my last buy was when I was living in Chicago in 2003 and bought my Fendi.

It's so soft and creamy this B.Mankowsky, a bag I wasn't too familiar with since I never really went shopping for purses. I am more of a home decor, dress and makeup girl. Without being a girly girl, I have managed to finally understand the wonderful feeling a new bag gives a woman. Call me crazy but it may become an addiction of mine.... vice #3 behind being OCD and cursing (so unlady like).

A woman's purse is like a man's shoes.... it tells a lot about her. Neat and tidy, well thought out or more carefree... Growing up, I never really got the whole have-a-million-bags-and-not-stop-shoppin'-for-'em.... that strange illness that the majority of women suffer from. Well, I get it now. And it's safe to say that if I have some extra money and want to treat myself to something a purse will come to mind. Retailers know this. This is why a fugly bag at any decent store nowadays will run you a cool $350 on average. You may have to sell a kidney or pawn some gold in order to get the one you want but in the end, it's well worth it. Hopefully your new bag will allow ample space, usage and easy finding!

who needs it?

2009-04-23T13:02:00.000-07:00

As i sit here, bills strung out all over my desk, phone numbers on oddly shaped slips of paper and the laptop close by... I am frustrated with the concept that since my cell has been out of commission for about a solid week, I feel like I live on Mars. When did paper go out of style? When did technology begin to consume our every thought, idea, lives? Did they have an understanding of what zombies their useful and helpful gadgets have created? In the one week without my T-Mobile "Crack"berry I found myself interacting with actual people... not phones or computers.

Whew! What a concept? Talk about a change! I am used to using my hands to communicate these days. When did face-to-face conversation lapse and plucking at keys on phones and computers take over? A part of me is sad to switch out the batteries and turn the thing on today. Yes, I need to be able to call someone... even make a call or two- but how in depth do our devices have to be? How many hours a day do we need to sit on these irrelevant gizmos in order to feel like we've connected to others, been productive or even existed for that day. I actually felt like I didn't EXIST when my phone wasn't turned on. Weird business.

I wish I didn't need it, feel retarded for not having, and isolated completely when it gets turned off for lack of a small fortune to pay the bill each month.

I guess this is my rant for today. It's a beautifully gusty day here in Missouri, the sun was bakin' my shoulders during the garage sale today and warmed my heart to know that spring is FINALLY HERE! Now I'm listening to Bonnie Raitt on shuffle and making sense of my life seeing how I wasn't able to manage without the power of my all-knowing Crackberry. Thanks T-Mobile for doing me a huge service.

addicted to Taschen

2009-04-16T08:53:00.000-07:00

is the bookstore where art, design and newness collide. Even their shopping bags are splashed with colors and shapes that inspire you to do something super creative and cool.

Paris, Tuscany, Mexico, and New Paris Interiors are my favorites right now having bought them on a whim one morning while walking around The Grove in LA. What better way to spend a beautifully balmy day in the area after going to the Fairfax High School Market.

Sipping coffee after eating at the great little Greek spot and being totally bored by the retail shops all set the stage perfectly for the entry and consumption of the wonderfully designed, styled and packaged books that awaited me inside the glassy store that I wasn't hip to. I could spend all of my money and time in this place... visit their site.